Maturity and Madness
I think I've reached the stage in my life where I consider myself a mature grown-up. I can say this with the conviction that could actually convince others, I would dare argue. That belief keeps me going through the day in what might otherwise be a random collection of events and reactions - my personal experience of life.
When having a conversation, my mind and mouth go on autopilot, often in different directions. My first thought on seeing a familiar face would be “oh no, what’s this person’s name – heck, let’s call him James and see if I can get away with that” followed by “what would be interesting or logical or sane to talk about without coming across like a senseless maniac?” Next thing I know, sounds are emanating from the back of my throat and my mind is saying “not bad, seems like I’m making sense and nobody’s called the cops on me yet.” And so I let it proceed, even with the other is busy checking their phone or looking baffled.
And I wonder how many others can do this amazing feat? Whip up an impromptu seemingly important yet meaningless conversation out of thin air? My kids, unfortunately, cannot do this, and I’m guessing it boils down to immaturity. They would struggle, I think, to find a random topic of interest to have a decent bi-directional flow of words between themselves and another person, child or adult. But I could be wrong as it looks like they have pretty decent social lives in school – what with having friends and whatnot.
But I sometimes feel like I'm just one stray-firing-neuron away from saying something completely irrelevant. "We have a hamster at home. It's called Hami and you can find a video of him on Instagram." which is where the extra brainpower is used - to ensure opinions of relatives and strange eating habits are filtered out. That's why long conversations can be draining and treacherous.
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| Celest doesn't know how to hold a phone straight. |
And I wonder how many others can do this amazing feat? Whip up an impromptu seemingly important yet meaningless conversation out of thin air? My kids, unfortunately, cannot do this, and I’m guessing it boils down to immaturity. They would struggle, I think, to find a random topic of interest to have a decent bi-directional flow of words between themselves and another person, child or adult. But I could be wrong as it looks like they have pretty decent social lives in school – what with having friends and whatnot.
But I sometimes feel like I'm just one stray-firing-neuron away from saying something completely irrelevant. "We have a hamster at home. It's called Hami and you can find a video of him on Instagram." which is where the extra brainpower is used - to ensure opinions of relatives and strange eating habits are filtered out. That's why long conversations can be draining and treacherous.